Wednesday, August 29, 2007

Am I separate from my host? No.

recently asked, "When did you first realize yourself as someone separate from your host?" The basis of the question -- that I had at some point realized that I am separate -- is incorrect, which tells me that I haven't been clear enough on the situation. Regardless, I am grateful to for asking. So, am I separate? I don't think so. The body is undeniably human, including the brain. In my cosmological view, the soul(s) interact with the brain in complex ways. There doesn't seem to be anyone else in this body. The brain is pretty cool; I got a good deal on that. The rest of the body... well, let's just say I'm making some permanent modifications. I have tried looking to see if there were anyone else in this body. On about three occasions, I tried to grant control of the body to "the succubus within". The experiments ran awkwardly with little satisfaction. I think I just wound up temporarily giving more control to my limbic system (the most primitive part of the brain) instead. I did a lot of grunting and glaring. :) As to the timeframe, I ran these experiments within the past 18 months or so. I wonder if my mismatched body-soul predicament is some sort of training exercise, joke, or retribution. Anger does come after Denial, right? :/ I recently ate an entire king-size (105g) Snickers bar. Fast. I wish I hadn't.

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